Jesus Take The Wheel

Holy Cow! It has been forever since I have last blogged! So long that I had to get a new password ahaha I feel like so much has happened and changed in my life the last six months there is no time in the world (at least that someone would want to spend reading) that I could share the major things that have happened to me. So I am just going to start with summer...well I will start in April. I GRADUATED!!!! Just with my associates but seriously I am so glad to have my generals out of the way so I can get going on what I really want to be doing! I was still trying to figure out what to do with the next four months of my life because I felt like I was in a weird in between of knowing I was leaving but wanting to stay because I had made such wonderful friends. The plan as of graduation day was to stay in SLC and work hopefully save a fair amount of money and then move to Cedar in August but somehow I was so unsettled with that idea, I felt as if I was just stuck, not moving forward and as I saw it if I wasn't moving forward I was falling behind. As my closest of friends could tell you I was going through a rough patch. Trying to "find myself" and figure out how to find true joy. My strongest desire was to feel "whole"  and I wasn't finding it in Salt Lake City. Don't get me wrong I LOVED it there I was blessed with amazing friends, wonderful roommates and amazing opportunities but something wasn't right. Things were not lining up with in myself and I was determined to find my inner peace.


Taking a step back and looking at my life experiences I never fail to be amazed at how much the Lord has guided my life. Heavenly Father was defiantly preparing me for what is coming next! He has always taken me in directions that I could have never dreamed for myself nor would I have chosen. I feel like I am constantly afforded opportunities to refine my soul and  come out a better and strong person. 


My father had called me one evening on a thursday night inviting me to move down to California to help take care of my mother who had been ill and unable to do the daily tasks in life which was very hard on her because she is such an independent woman. He went on saying that in order for me to work while I was down in California (if that was my choice) I needed to be to work on Monday. Now math is not my best subject but I quickly realized that gave me only 3 days to pack up my life in Utah and be gone. What was I going to do about my apartment? My friends? My job?!?! Oh my goodness its a cool and weird feeling knowing that you can just pick up your life and move in a matter of days (not a big deal) needless to say as I said a little prayer trying to understand what I was suppose to do. Torn between staying in Salt Lake because I had such wonderful friends who I adore, living on my OWN, my job that I enjoyed or moving to California to go back to Riverside (which in my mind would be social suicide) however I would be making and saving a lot more money and most importantly being there for my mother. Needless to say it has been one of the BEST decisions I have made ever! I have had so many opportunities to better myself, help my mother, and build friendships here in Riverside and make more friends than I would have ever imagined.


One thing is for sure the Summer of 2011 will be one I will never forget. The opportunities and experiences that have been placed before me have been priceless. My testimony of the Savior and just how much He is aware of me and my life has grown tremendously. I feel so blessed loved and through my journey have come to feel whole, find joy and understand better His gospel thorough Him who knows all things.