I have failed recently at blogging. It has been a few weeks. Id say my excuse was moving and the
fact that my lap top was in the shop for a bit but...we all know thats just a lousy excuse. I feel like I have so much on my mind so if you are actually reading this...you are about to get to know me just a bit better haha
I have contemplated the thought of love (of all kinds) a lot lately and as of right now I am sitting at the Starbucks in Cedar City (because they have free internet) and as I was contemplating...life (super cliche i know) I noticed this cute little asian couple sitting at a table for two all goo goo eyed and it reminded me of my first "love" ha my first infatuation, relationship or whatever you want to call it. When I first started liking this boy he sang me the song Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop and I was all giddy and nervous cause I mean come on?! a boy singing a love song...to ME!!! Who wouldnt and coffee shops kind of became our thing. So anyways the song just fit my title :)
Since that first boy there have been others and what I thought I knew about love at that moment has changed dramatically.
This summer I was on a mission to discover myself in relation to love. How to properly love other people whether it be in friend, family, or romantic relationships. How to love myself fully also how to feel loved by other people. I fully believe that God gives us reoccurring situations so that we can overcome them and master them in pursuit of becoming better and more like him.
I use to think it was a weird saying You can't fully love others until you love yourself. What a huge truth that is. What has boggled my mind is what people constitute as love. Maybe its me that has the off views but I feel like love is exciting and selfless. Where all you want is for that person to succeed that you would never intentionally do something to hurt them. Obviously love is not a perfect fairy tale. We are humans and we make mistakes but I feel like love is being able to admit that you were wrong. To own up to your mistakes and make them better. To be honest and genuine. To not mislead or misdirect them. I believe that love is something you have to work at sometimes there can be those initial feelings of love and adoration but as with anything worth while it takes work. As it is said, fear and faith cant exist at the same time so is it with love. True love and fear cant exist. I am talking about fear of you being hurt or not being approved of or mishandled. Fear of if your not with that person who else would want you. I understand that people have fears of being hurt or of uncertainty that's not what I am talking about. I have witnessed so much of that and it breaks my heart that such things are accepted as the best kind of love there is.
Through my whole experience/journey this summer I have been able to feel the most amazing love of all as I have built my relationship with my Heavenly Father and I have come to better understand love as a whole. I have at times looked at love from a worldly eternalness perspective and I couldn't have been more wrong.
Our souls were designed to be filled with love, a love that all can feel but it can’t be filled by just one person. God places people in our lives to love us, to be vessels of his love. For our souls to be complete we need to fill it with a special kind of love, which is the love of our Heavenly Father. In the book, Do You Think I’m Beautiful? It says, “Our hearts have been made to cry out for a love that can only come from our creator.” President Uchtdorf describes the love of the Savior when he says:
“Think of the purest, most all-consuming love you can imagine. Now multiply that love by an infinite amount—that is the measure of God’s love for you. God does not look on the outward appearance. I believe that He doesn’t care one bit if we live in a castle or a cottage, if we are handsome or homely, if we are famous or forgotten. Though we are incomplete, God loves us completely. Though we are imperfect, He loves us perfectly. Though we may feel lost and without compass, God’s love encompasses us completely. He loves us because He is filled with an infinite measure of holy, pure, and indescribable love. We are important to God not because of our résumé but because we are His children. He loves every one of us, even those who are flawed, rejected, awkward, sorrowful, or broken. God’s love is so great that He loves even the proud, the selfish, the arrogant, and the wicked.”
I am so grateful for the knowledge that God’s love for us is perfect and never ending. We could neglect him, hate him, and curse his name but his love would not change. What a beautiful thing to have. Although it would deeply sadden him, his love for you and I would still be perfect. Sister Virginia H. Pearce describes the love of God by stating His love “truly is the most joyous and delicious thing we can experience on this earth. It is so good that when we are filled with it, we are consumed with a desire that others should feel it to.”
It has often been argued that God’s love is not perfect, that his love isn’t real, for the reason that if he truly loved us there wouldn’t be things in the world such as starving children, murder, hatred and disease. President James E. Faust commented on this subject saying, “The overwhelming message of the Atonement is the perfect love the Savior has for each and all of us. It is a love which is full of mercy, patience, grace, equity, long-suffering, and, above all, forgiving.” It was through the atonement, his pure love and complete selflessness that he sent his only son to come down to earth, knowing he would have to endure every kind of heartache and pain. That His beloved son would have to take on the sins of the whole world and during his hardest hour heavenly father would have to withdraw himself from Christ. Stated in John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son…” What a sacrifice that must have been. It is because Heavenly Father loves us that we have free agency which sometimes unfortunately, creates disease, death, and hunger.
When we came down to earth we knew it wouldn’t be easy. That because we are not perfect there would have hardships. Like any good parent, Heavenly Father gives us experiences to learn and grow, to help us draw nearer unto him, and become perfected in him so that we might once again return to live with him. God shows us his love by offering us his wisdom, love and support as we go through life. There isn’t anything he doesn’t understand and he doesn’t expect us to do it alone.
I don’t know a lot of things but one thing I do know that God’s love is real! To feel the Saviors love is an amazing feeling and it is something that we can feel every day. Unfortunately sometimes we let things get in our way. None of us can fully comprehend just how powerful his love is. If we truly understand the impact it would have on our lives to feel the Saviors love for us in our daily life we would hunger after and be in an active pursuit to feel it. The possibilities are endless. Explaining this concept more fully Elder John H. Groberg said, “When filled with God’s love, we can do and see and understand things that we could not otherwise do or see or understand. Filled with his love, we can endure pain, quell fear, forgive freely, avoid contention, renew strength, and bless and help others in ways surprising even to us.” I feel so incredibly blessed to have an increased understanding of God's love and a better understanding of what it means to love others and what it feels like to let other people love me.
I dont know if this is where I intended this blog to go as at first I was kind of on a tangent. I am so thankful for the people in my life for the experiences that I have to help me learn and grow. My hope is that I will eventually get to the point in life where people will be able to feel how much the Savior loves them because of the way I love them and treat them.
Love is patient, kind, compassionate, understanding, full of service, humble, honest and sincere...